how to feel that life is worthwhile :
I can’t always balance
nature is (miraculously) imperfect in every way
and beyond the grasp of understanding
change is the only constant
but each moment is a destination
and patience is a well practiced virtue
that is a state of mind
as the warmth leaves your fingertips to
the freeze ,
time takes time
my ice cream melts and I pour it on the ground .
because I want to see how viscous sugar and cream are tonight
but I can’t re move —
how long is forever going to last ?
I scratch my hand unintentionally and I notice now because it stings
I am here, now.
I sing most loudly in the car alone, then the shower, then nothing.
the onset of tears can be felt as a swelling of warmth and pressure that starts from your chest and crawls up to the edge of your eyes
life is just bad right now.